learning from love..

"loving is always a learning process.. With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice.. We learn how to be unselfish and give more than what we can give.. But when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it feels like to fall and get hurt.. But learning doesn't have to end there.. After our fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on.. This is when we learn that LIFE doesn't end when our heartbreaks begin.. It's true that there is LIFE in LOVE.. But there can still be LIFE after losing love.."

a letter to my heart

Dear Heart,
Would you please listen to Brain? You know well enough that it's over. But why do you continue missing him? Why do you still care for him when you know well enough that he doesn't give a damn about you?! When will you wake up and face the fact that he's not coming back? Not as that special someone nor as a friend?. Accept the fact that you've lost your best friend, that he's not coming back. Move on for Pete's sake.! You're making it hard for yourself. That's why Brain's driving himself busy just so you won't feel a thing anymore. Did you know that he's almost worn out from all of the things that are required of him? But you know what, he still accepts everything. Want to know why? It's because to not let you feel any pain anymore. He knows well enough that you're tired of feeling pain, that you don't want to feel anything anymore. But please, Heart, try to do your part as well. You're making it hard for Brain as well as for me. I know that what you're going through it not easy. Both Brain and I am aware of that fact. That's why we're making ways to keep all of us busy. We're trying to numb you of that feeling. Until the one who will make you feel no pain comes along. Reserve that for the one. He doesn't deserve the attention you're giving to him. He has neglected you. He didn't care for you in the first place. If he did, he would have stayed. He would have fought for you. He would have been HONEST with you. Engrave that fact to yourself. Always remember that. So do yourself a favor, forget about him. That's what he wants anyway. He's the first one who forgot about you so it's pointless to give that attention to him. Besides, he seems happy that you're not around anymore. Isn't that enough to push you to let him go? What did you see in him anyway?! I don't get you. *sigh* You're just hurting yourself even more. Do yourself a favor and save yourself the pain. You don't deserve it. It's painful because you know you have loved truly. At least you know that you gave what you could. Cheer up. The one for you is just there. He just didn't arrive yet. :)

growing up..

"as a little girl, I believed in wands and fairytales then he came and I believed in prince charming too! But he made it hard for me to believe in happy ever afters, so I decided to give up. Not because I don't love him anymore, but because little girls grow up too."

finding you..

"find someone who wants to kiss your lips every day, who lifts and hugs you when you're jealous, who patiently kips silent when you're mad, who fixes your hair just to see your face, and the one who wants to have lunch with you with his or her family. The one who shares his/her drinks with you, who squeezes your hand together when you squeeze him/her and the one who wants to cut work just to have a date with you. Find someone who plans and imagines his/her future with you 7years from now, and when you find him/her, never let go!..."

more than you'll ever know...

Take my hand
We'll walk a while, we'll talk a while
Feel my love, always there beside you
Be the one
I know you'll tell me everything
You are the one I cherish more than anything

I love you more than you'll ever know
I love you more than you'll ever see
More than my heart could ever show
I love you more than you'll ever know

Think of me
And know that I'll believe in you
There'll always be this precious time together
With every tear
A love so strong, no words could ever say
A love to last forever

I love you more than you'll ever know
I love you more than you'll ever see
More than my heart could ever show
I love you more than you'll ever know

Take my hand
We'll walk awhile,we'll talk awhile
Feel my love,always there beside you
Be the one
I know you'll tell me everything
You are the one I cherish more than anything

I love you more than you'll ever know
I love you more than you'll ever see
More than my heart could ever show
I love you more than you'll ever know

-- for you. something that you will never know... :'(

mime me out..

"define pretending: saying you're ok, but you're not, that you understand but you don't; acting like you're busy, but in reality you're lonely; convincing people that you just want to be friends, but what you really want is more than friends; when you know that he/she has somebody new, you act like it doesn't hurt when it really hurts so bad inside; when you say you've moved on, but the truth is you're still waiting; when you say it's over, but you know you still love him/her; and you say you can't relate to this message, but then you really do…"

missing you...

im missing you again... though there's no point in me missing you... im just making things hard for me... i didn't want for things to be this way... it pains me to know that i can't see you..not know how you are now..i long for your embrace...i long for you...i didn't love you for you to become a mere memory...i miss you....